Sunday, March 30, 2008

This is the time we've been waiting for!

Happy Sunday morning!
There is a lot to be grateful for today as we continue on this journey of Soul Purpose. I am grateful as well for the words of support and encouragement and I am motivated by those who share their eagerness to get started. I am pleased to share that we have indeed begun and we have done so in record time. Our online enrollment is ready to go and we are ready for the conversion of visionaries to full fledged consultants.
What is most phenomenal is that we started working on putting together Soul Purpose in December of 2007 and launched our vision in January of 2008. In 12 weeks we have built a website, developed the product line, crafted a business plan, etc, etc, etc. Twelve weeks and 3000 people who have committed to the vision. We are now ready to launch, to have our visionaries convert to becoming consultants and to begin selling products. This process for a traditional start-up direct sales company usually takes about 18 months. We are starting in record breaking time.
Imagine without collecting a dime from consultants we have gone from a beautiful vision to a full fledged company in 12 weeks. This is nothing short of a blessing and a testimony!

Interestingly enough I also feel personal pressure and anxiety to have started selling yesterday but to do all of this correctly especially with our technology and back office systems we can only move "so" quickly and our manufacturers can only manufacture products and print labels "so" fast.
I agree let's get started and continue to move along as quickly as possible; the time is here and now. Our goal is to have our first grouping of products available at your launch parties on April 12th and new products coming on line every month thereafter. I am pushing and working as hard as I can to do this as quickly as possible but also very mindful that only the best will do and wanting to provide to each of you the best that God has blessed me to offer and the best quality products and systems that you deserve.
My biggest concern and I must admit "fear" is rushing and then putting out products that are not as great as you expected and business systems with glitches. I must also admit that as a black woman I know that I will be harshly judged and criticized if what I produce is shaky and not of the best quality. My fear is that it will be said that I rushed and did a second rate job. I am mindful of my personal integrity and vision and aware that it is important I be respectful of these things as well.
Thank you for your confidence and believe it or not I am encouraged by a bit of impatience and challenged by your feedback to do my best because that is evidence of anticipation of great things to come.
Yes, this is the time to be prayerful for success as entrepreneurs and business people; let's move ahead to the prosperity that we all deserve.
Thank you and much love,

Sunday, March 23, 2008

The gift of healing.

Good evening and Happy Easter my friends,

Easter is indeed a time of the celebration of resurrection, re-birth, renewal and The Good News. We have given birth Soul Purpose in this season of rebirth and renewal and the opportunity and potential is limitless. This is indeed Good News.

This has been a good day, my friend Natalie and her family drove up from New York to spend Easter with our family. It was a wonderful weekend and most importantly I felt comfortable enough to rest in her presence and just be myself. I did very little work this weekend but I feel like I had some tremendous breakthroughs. Let me explain, the truth is that ever since my termination from Warm Spirit and I have been very depressed and wrought with grief and anxiety. I have not been sleeping well, my anxiety level is high especially early in the mornings and the pain of the betrayal and racism and sexism has made it impossible to bear. My friends and family have been supportive and have helped me through the pain of loss. God has blessed me with a new vision and a new calling that has been more beautiful than I could possibly imagine; the birth of Soul Purpose has been beautiful beyond words. I am grateful and in awe of God's ability to forgive us and bless us. What fuels my work in the day time is the awareness of this blessing; I work on Soul Purpose with a commitment that is unwavering. The community's response to Soul Purpose has been another miracle and blessing. Twenty-five hundred women and men in 6 weeks is phenomenal and possibly a record for the industry.

Because this blog is about telling the truth; let me continue to do so. I have been so sad about the events that took place at Warm Spirit, the betrayal, the racism, the sexism, the denial and then the lawsuit; I have been in such shock that I have not cried. I have been sad but absolutely very few tears but no crying per say. I felt a shift when I was on the plane on my way to Toronto to see my parents. I sat in my seat and wept. I was so tired and so stressed, that the tears literally flew out of my eyes. I buried my hands in my eyes and wept. I wept again when I was leaving my parents home and I was sitting alone with my dad and he wept as I said good bye. I could not hold back the tears or the emotions. I thought uh-oh here we go, the door has been opened...

My healing had gone to another level.

Yesterday I was listening to the recordings that I did for soul purpose and when I heard my voice speaking with such sweet passion about the Soul Purpose project and brand, I could not hold back the tears. I thought uh-oh!!!!!!

Last night Natalie and I watched "Why Did I Get Married"; and there was the part lifted my story about getting kicked off the plane and the abuse of overweight women and then the joy of empowerment, I wept again. Oh No!!!!!!

Today I emailed my spiritual coach who is so wonderful and insightful and her response to my depression and anxiety made me teary, then I watched Akeelah and the Bee and could not stop crying through the entire movie and I knew it was game over. Then near the end of the movie Lawrence Fishburne who plays her coach in the movie recites the famous Marianne Williamson poem and the tears started seeping out. That poem although I have heard it and read the words so many times; today it hit me in a way and in a place that it has never reached before. When I saw this beautiful young black girl walking towards the stage for the championship spelling bee, proud, confident and full of potential. I thought of the hundreds of women and men whose lives had been touched by my vision at Warm Spirit and the blessing that God has given me to continue my work with Soul Purpose.

The tears me for represents a new place in my healing, I have turned a corner. The devastation is not so great that it will destroy me any longer, I can breathe, I can exhale. I will be okay and to submit to the tears no longer means submitting to the devastation that I felt. I will not be destroyed but I feel strengthened and truth be told there was no way to short circuit this process. I am grateful to my parents, my husband, my family, Natalie, Cheryl, Stacey, Candi, Angelia, Terri, April, LaChrisa, Josi, Lisa and the countless others who held me up in getting to this point. I feel blessed to be able to cry and to know that I will not be annihilated by my experience and my emotions. I have turned another corner towards victory and I am sooooo grateful.

Here is the poem by Marianne Williamson:

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

Saturday, March 1, 2008

We are the ones we have been waiting for!

I love this prayer and will write more about it over the next few days. but it speaks to me- every line- in quite profound ways. In my earlier post I talk about the need to be joyful and celebrate with my community that is in the water with me and the gifts that I have been given. The blessing of the 1500 visionaries is testimony beyond words. I am grateful! and I am challenged to be a better person and a person worthy of the gifts. I realize and promise to continue to celebrate with those of you in the water with me and most important, I realize that "we are indeed the ones we have been waiting for".
Much love,

Let me share the words of this Hopi Indian Prayer with you:
We Are the Ones We've Been Waiting For
You have been telling the people that this is the Eleventh Hour.Now you must go back and tell the people that this is The Hour.And there are things to be considered:
Where are you living?
What are you doing?
What are your relationships?
Are you in right relation?
Where is your water?
Know your garden.It is time to speak your Truth.Create your community. Be good to each other. And do not look outside yourself for the leader. This could be a good time!There is a river flowing now very fast. It is so great and swift that there are those who will be afraid. They will try to hold on to the shore. They will feel they are being torn apart, and they will suffer greatly.Know the river has its destination. The elders say we must let go of the shore, push off into the middle of the river, keep our eyes open, and our heads above the water. See who is in there with you and celebrate. At this time in history, we are to take nothing personally. Least of all, ourselves. For the moment that we do, our spiritual growth and journey comes to a halt.The time of the lone wolf is over. Gather yourselves! Banish the word struggle from your attitude and your vocabulary.All that we do now must be done in a sacred manner and in celebration. We are the ones we've been waiting for.
—The Elders Oraibi Arizona Hopi Nation

Counting our blessings

Today I realized something about myself that was quite troubling to acknowledge. This new self awareness is indeed a blessing and an opportunity for personal growth. It is quite simple! For months I have been sad and deeply hurt about the recent events that took place in my life. I was greatly disappointed in the betrayal of friendship and trust, I was deeply hurt and disappointed in the lack of leadership and people's inability to stand up for something that was unfair and unjust. This week I was alarmed and hurt all over again, like the scar had been peeled back and the wound exposed again. A person that I had trusted revealed herself yet again. Her plan was revealed and I was shocked. I was blinded by the hurt and pain and wondered dear God how much more, how much more. How many more snakes in the grass have to be revealed, I just want to put this all behind me. But today after speaking with friends and trying to process my pain, my anger, my disappointment and my sense of betrayal again, I felt sad and sorry for myself. In the midst however in conversation with an empathic soul, a stunning truth was revealed. It was like God found a window of opportunity to say to me, Nadine how much more positive evidence can I give you. I keep showing you the positive and you keep looking back at the negative. I bring you good visionaries and you still look back at the snakes in the grass and give them power over your mood and mind set. It was like a light went off and I said, my God you have given me over 1500 visionaries to build the foundation of Soul Purpose. 1500 visionaries who will be the rocks and the pillars of this new venture. 1500 who understand, who love the vision, who understand empowerment and who want to do the right thing. Then Nadine why do you look back at the handful of people who betrayed you, took advantage of you, used you and spoke ill of you. It is important to move forward; to look forward not look back like Job did but forward in your calling. This for me is a new revelation. I am guilty of looking back. I am guilty of giving power to the people who did not mean me well. I am guilty of not giving honor to the gifts I have been given.
Today I make my vow to try really hard to not look back but to focus on the blessings and gifts that right here in front of me and right here beside me in my calling. I apologize for these moments of weakness and I realize the glory and the gifts I have been given. My eyes have been re-opened and the backward facing blinders have been removed, and for that I am grateful.
The power of the 1500 is bright, powerful, amazing and most important a testimonyto God's Will in my life. To God be the glory!
Much love Nadine

Here are some words that were sent to me today that helped greatly with my healing:
Also, I looked up the verse I referred to when we spoke. I have pasted them below. Lady Nadine, you are the sower. We (Visionaries) are seeds on good ground and we shall bring fourth good fruit. Be blessed and I'll call you next weekend when I am in town.Matthew 13:1-8 (King James Version)
1 The same day went Jesus out of the house, and sat by the sea side.
2 And great multitudes were gathered together unto him, so that he went into a ship, and sat; and the whole multitude stood on the shore.
3 And he spake many things unto them in parables, saying, Behold, a sower went forth to sow;
4 And when he sowed, some seeds fell by the way side, and the fowls came and devoured them up:
5 Some fell upon stony places, where they had not much earth: and forthwith they sprung up, because they had no deepness of earth:
6 And when the sun was up, they were scorched; and because they had no root, they withered away.
7 And some fell among thorns; and the thorns sprung up, and choked them:
8 But other fell into good ground, and brought forth fruit, some an hundredfold, some sixty fold, some thirty fold.